Just For Me

Were you always silently judging me?
Slowly planning your departure 
Waiting for the right moment 
Right scenario 
To justify your exit 
Were you ever true?
Did you ever mean it?
The things you said to me 
Was it all performance?
Did you ever care? 
When did you decide 
And how long did you wait?
Why didn't you demand more of me?
More of yourself?
Why do I keep ignoring that feeling?
Why do I avoid asking those questions?
Did we abandon me at the same time?
Was it the one thing we truly did together? 
What about me says I don't deserve more?